rasa cinta yang menggunung

yang membuat sakit kepala dan sesak di dada

yang membuat sulit bernapas

rasa cinta yang mematikan semua rasa

yang membuat lumpuh seluruh gerak

yang menyesaki setiap sudut jiwa

buang saja semuanya..

agar tahu rasanya sepi...

di daun yang ikut mengalir lembut
terbawa sungai ke ujung mata
dan aku mulai takut terbawa cinta
menghirup rindu yang sesakkan dada

jalanku hampa dan kusentuh dia
terasa hangat di dalam hati
kupegang erat dan kuhalangi waktu
tak urung jua
ku lihat nya pergi

tak pernah ku ragu
dan selalu ku ingat
kerlingan matamu
dan sentuhan hangat

ku saat itu takut mencari makna
tumbuhkan rasa yang sesakkan dada

kau datang dan pergi begitu saja
semua ku terima apa adanya
mata terpejam dan hati menggumam
di ruang rindu kita bertemu

 [ruang rindu -- letto]

I don't know but I just love this song sooo much..

maybe because of the lyrics..

I'd say it's one of the best lyrics ever written..

a woman needs a man

like a fish needs a bicycle...

[paul hewson - ...achtung baby!]

what has been said

can never be taken back

apologize to it is just like repainting a stained wall

you got a new wall, but the stain stays underneath forever

you, above all common people,

let alone those who are devoted to you,

should've acknowledged that by heart

what are you trying to deny?

shame on you

shame on you for not using your power

to make the world a better place for all of us

for all of us

and more importantly for your awfully mislead sheeps

I pity you

really.

a multiple car crash that is.. On Thursday June 22, 2006. He was driving home from work to pick me up at the central station.

It was raining like hell indeed that afternoon, and the highway was inevitably slippery. A multiple car crash invloving 5 cars in an row, his car and the other two were the sandwiches, but it was the car behind his that crashed the worst.

O.. I only thank GOD that my baby is okay... not even a scratch.. and so was everybody..

this is the car after the crash

..and this is him the next morning at breakfast.. with his big bright smile... :D

Love you ayang... :)

Wed. May 17, 2006.

06.15
BOGOR. At home. Breaksfast.
Baru mau suapan kedua.. diiinn..ddiiinnn..
the pick-up service is already there at my door.. OMG...
yowess.. so i just take my vitamin and wrap up some slices of bread to eat on the way there..
phew..

09.30
BANDUNG. SVG guest house, ciumbuleuit.
still have time to prepare everything before all candidates show up for interview..
So I take the bread and read up some of the CVs.

10.00
One of the supervisor shows up...
it turns out that he has some problems with the manager in the outlet..
so.. there I am, listening to his version of story.. giving him some pep-talk,
suggesting him some things and stuffs..
He looks releived after spilling over what seemed to be kept for quite some times..
ppffh.. another basketcase role I have to play on this morning.. :(

10.45
First candidate shows up, so I just start the interview.
Basic personal information and some job related experiences I need to dig from this person.
Done. She's succeeded in giving me good impression as she seems to have good knowledge
of what she will be doing in the outlet. Good start.

11.00
Second candidate. Also a she.
She's pretty good too.
I have other plans for her.

11.35
The marketing person shows up. Actually I was a bit worried he wouldn't come and sign the paper.
But a couple of hours before on my way to Bandung he sent me sms making sure that
he accepts the offer and will come to sign the contract.
phew...
So I'll just leave this boy to my M&P Manager for job assignments.

13.00
Lunch. Junk food kinda lunch.. :p

14.15
BANDUNG. Ciwalk.
Appointment with the Coorp. Chef for test food to the cook candidates.
During preparation I made my way to the outlet and meet the RSM for problem review
brought about by the supervisor I met previously.
This is not right. I have to sit and talk with both of them so all versions can be
compared and assessed at the same time.
Save time. I have to be in Jakarta a few hours ahead.

15.30
Still not quite content. Both are having their own judgements and arguments.
This is what I don't like. Sweating small stuffs.. :(
Okay, both of them have made their points and agreed to resolve together.
I give them one week to do that and I'll review this next Wednesday.
And I mean it when I told them: TOGETHER.

15.45
Good God.. Don't think I can make it to the pick-up point by 4..
I called them, trying to shift to the next schedule. Done. 4.30 it is.

Testing the food. These candidates are good!
However, I have to choose 3 out of 4 for Cook and Cook Helpers.
I take this, this and this. (I'm pointing my finger). Done.

16.20
OMG... This is crazy! There's no way I will for the second time shift to another half hour..
Hell NO.
I'm having class at 7. I have to be there. I skipped twice already. :)
So there I run to the pick-up point hoping I can still make it for the 4.30 schedule.
Got there.. a bit panting.. smiling to si mbak counter and asked as politely as I could
while still catching my breath..

me: mbak yg stengah 5 blm jalan kan? Saya tadi udah pesen di seat nomer 3..
mbak: mmm.. mbak.. tadi namanya siapa?
me: ossi. tadi saya tlp yg pindah dari jam 4..
mbak: sebentar, (so she runs through her notes, then her friend's notes... and...
couldn't find my name)..
me: *thinking* shite.. how could this happen..?
mbak: tadi tlp ke nomer yg mana..?
me: ummmh.. bentar mbak... *waks!!* (there I know I made a stoopid error)
mbak: ohh.... itu kan nomer tlp yg di jakarta mbak...

Monyong! jadi dari tadi gue tlp pesen shuttle service yg di jakarta utk ke jakarta
sementara gue di bandung aja gituhhh???
amyuunn... bodoh kok dipiara...

me: *feeling stoopidly genious* ohh.. yawdade mbak, saya pesen yg jam 5 aja yah..:)

17.05
so there I was, on the bus already. heading jakarta.
That's when I found an amazing fact.
In front seat, sitting a man.. busy talking to his mobile... which is normal bukan??
Yep.. so far normal.. until I found out that he needs to be escorted just to get to the bus
and get seated. Good Lord.. he's a blind man..
I found it amazing that he is able to use the cellphone as it is..
(man, how does he pin the numbers to call?)
ah... Tuhan Maha Maha Adil...
Pak yg duduk di depan tadi sore.. I salute you!!

19.30
JAKARTA. Kampus Salemba. Ruang 101. Consumer Behaviour class.

21.20
TMII high way. Jakarta - Bogor on the shuttle bus.

22.00
BOGOR. Again. Home at last.

innalillahi wa inna illaihi rojiun...

Telah kembali kepada ALLAH SWT Sang Pencipta;

anak pertama kami MIRANTI NOOR PUTRI FITRAHATI

Pada hari Rabu, 29 Maret 2006 Pukul 18.35 wib

Dalam usia kandungan 23 minggu

Insya Allah Syurga menjadi tempatnya yang abadi..

Semoga Allah SWT senantiasa memberikan kekuatan kepada kami yang ditinggalkan.. Amin..

 

 

 

(selamat bobo ya Putri sayang.... Ayah & Bunda di sini selalu mendoakan kamu, Nak..)

adik saya, bedanya cuma 1 setengah tahun dgn saya. Tapi bodynya jauh banget lebih gede dari saya, dan dia lebih centil dari saya, lebih pinter dandan dan lebih putih.. hihi..

Adik saya punya tanda lahir - birth mark - warna kecoklatan di kaki kanannya.. eh atau kaki kirinya ya?
lho kok jadi gak yakin ya.. anyway, gini ceritanya.

waktu kecil dulu, birthmark itu jadi keliatan gede banget di kaki adik saya dan warnanya yang kecoklatan itu jadi seperti tompel raksasa yang mengelilingi kaki dia yg putih.

Dulu dia sebel dan benci banget sama birthmark itu.

sering juga protes ke mama..
'ade sebel sama kaki ade!'
'huh! kaki ade jadi jelek gini gara2 tanda ini deh!'

dan banyak lagi gerutuan dia soal tanda lahir itu.

saya, kakaknya, juga gak bisa bilang2 apa.. abis sama2 gak ngerti kok bisa ada birthmark segede gitu ya? Sebenernya saya juga punya birthmark, kecil memang, satu di ujung lutut kiri atas, satu lagi di ujung bahu kanan. Dan dibandingkan punya adik saya, birthmark saya mah kecil banget, makanya saya sih gak ada problem, lagian letaknya tertutup gitu ;)

Kalo adik saya udah mulai mengeluh dan marah2 sama birthmark nya, mama saya biasanya sih berusaha menenangkan dgn cerita2 yg kayak mitos.. tau kan?

yang semacam kalo orang bertahi lalat di bibir, artinya bawel. Yg bertahi lalat di kaki, artinya jago jalan jauh.. semacam itu lah..

utk adik saya, mama bilang; 'gak udah sebel de.. tanda itu artinya nanti gede kamu bakal jalan2 terus.. keliling dunia..'

'tanda itu ngelilingin kaki kamu kan? artinya kamu bakal jalan2 ke luar negeri tuh de!!'

dan saya dan papa juga buru2 ikutan menyetujui mama, hanya supaya si ade tenang dan sedikit lupa sama sebelnya dia..

'iya, bener de! elu mah ntar keliling dunia tuh artinya!'

'ah, boong.. si mama gak punya tanda segede gini juga bisa jalan2 keluar negeri kan??'

(mama saya dulunya pramugari, jadi ya emang terbang2 mulu keliling dunia bukan?)

'yee.. gak percaya... bener lagi! udah percaya deh sama mama, tanda itu artinya kamu akan keliling dunia! mama doain deh! liat aja nanti..'

------------

dan sekarang, dua puluh tahun lebih kemudian..
adik saya lagi ada di Bucharest, Rumania.. untuk selanjutnya ke Rusia. Setelah sebelumnya ke Jepang, lalu ke Vietnam, ke Thailand, Malaysia, Philipinnes, Hong Kong...

Padahal baru beberapa minggu lalu saya terima SMS dia waktu ada di Bali: 'teh, mau oleh-oleh apa dari Bali?'
setelah sebelumnya ke Lombok, Ujung Pandang, Semarang, Jogja, Malang, Surabaya...

...

adik saya bener2 keliling dunia!
saya jadi kepikiran.. kok ya bisa bener ya.. apa cuma kebetulan aja?

kerjaannya sebagi repoter dan scriptwriter di program highrating yang membahas kehidupan malam dan kehidupan "panas" warga metropolitan produksi TV swasta yang bermarkas di daerah Mampang itu lah yang membuat dia bisa jalan2 ke negara2 yang mungkin dulunya boboro pernah kebayangin bakal dia datengin..

Sungguh saya jadi kagum juga sama mama saya... mama kami berdua, kok beliau bisa ya bicara begitu pada saat mungkin bahkan bayangannya aja gak keliatan..
naluri seorang ibu kah??
doa mama dulu kah yang di dengar Allah?
atau kebetulan sajakah? Karena dulu mungkin beliau ngomong begitu semata hanya utk menenangkan dan membuat senang adik saya saja. Supaya dia lupa sejenak.. Habis mau diapakan lagi? masa dioperasi? Tattoo aja susah dibuang, ini birthmark.. bawaan lahir gitu lhoo..

dan adik saya, keliatan banget dia menikmati setiap perjalanan itu... seneng banget dia..
dia inget gak ya, kalo dulu tuh nyokap kita berdua lah yang "memberikan" janji itu..?
dan sekarang semuanya jadi kenyataan.. sesuai janji mama..

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"kehidupan adalah 10% yang terjadi pada dirimu, dan 90% sisanya adalah bagaimana kamu menghadapinya"

("5 cm" - book by Donny Dirgantoro)

The sum which two married people owe to one another defies calculation. It is an infinite debt, which can only be discharged through all eternity.  - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

The Wedding Of Ossi & Rully

Saturday, August 13, 2005

I'm back..

phew.. been a while since my last posting..

saturday, august 13, 2005

spare a breath, I'll pour down the story later soon :)

see ya!

All parents damage their children.
It cannot be helped.
Youth, like pristine glass, absorbs the prints of its handlers.
Some parents smudge, other crack, a few shatter childhoods completely into jagged little pieces, beyond repair.

The hands on Eddie's childhood glass then were hard and calloused and red with anger, and he went through his younger years whacked, lashed, and beaten.

Through it all, despite it all, Eddie privately adored his old man, because sons will adore their father through even the worst behaviour. It is how they learn devotion. Before he can devote himself to God or a woman, a boy will devote himself to his father, even foolishly, even beyond explanation.

All parents damage their children.
This was their life together. Neglect. Violence. Silence.
And now, someplace beyond death, Eddie slumped against a stainless wall and dropped into snowbank, stung again by the denial of a man whose love, almost inexplicably, he still coveted, a man ignoring him, even in Heaven. His father. The damage is done.

(the five people you meet in heaven - Mitch Albom)

* only in this case, it was a daughter.. *

info tambahan untuk postingan sebelum ini :)

GADIS KECIL

Album musikalisasi puisi Sapardi Djoko Damono

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[hujan bulan juni]

lagi dengerin GADIS KECIL, album musikalisasi puisinya Sapardi Djoko Damono yang dibuat sama Dua Ibu (Reda dan Tatyana).

Puisi di atas adalah salah satu dari 11 puisi yang dimusikalisasi oleh Dua Ibu ini, melibatkan Henry Lamiri, AGS Arya Dipayana, Jubing Kristanto, dll..

Betapa saya cinta puisi-puisinya SDD... :)

Seperti yang ini:

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana
dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan
kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya abu

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dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan
awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada

[Aku Ingin]

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Album GADIS KECIL

Sebuah usaha memperkenalkan dunia sastra
pada masyarakat luas dalam bentuk
cd musikalisasi puisi
Sapardi Djoko Damono
 
dilakukan oleh
Dua Ibu

dua perempuan pekerja biasa yang suka puisi dan suka menyanyi,
yang terlibat dalam beberapa kegiatan/produksi musikalisasi puisi
seperti Musikalisasi Puisi Pekan Apresiasi Sastra Depdikbud (1987)
dan Bulan Apresiasi Sastra Depdikbud (1988),
album musikalisasi puisi Sapardi Djoko Damono
HUJAN BULAN JUNI (1990) dan HUJAN DALAM KOMPOSISI (1996)

Lagu-lagu dalam album ini digubah oleh:
M. Umar Muslim (Hujan Bulan Juni, Ketika Jari-jari Bunga Terbuka, Sajak-sajak Kecil Tentang Cinta, Buat Ning dan Nokturno);
AGS Arya Dipayana (Aku Ingin, Dalam Diriku, Hatiku Selembar Daun)
Tatyana (Hutan Kelabu Dalam Hujan) dan Reda (Gadis Kecil)

Disajikan dalam paduan musik akustik,
terdiri dari gitar (Jubing dan Umar), flute (Budjel Dipuro),
bass (Mark Willianto) dan biola (Henri Lamiri).
Beberapa lagu digarap lengkap dengan beberapa instrument,
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.....

I don't know what to do with you...

so I'll just marry you.. :)

.....

life is all about compromising..

kompromi aja sana sampe mati...!!

:evil:

getting ready for a new chapter of my life... of our life.. :)

The Story Of Us

'menikah adalah suatu usaha pembuktian seumur hidup'

The sum which two married people owe to one another defies calculation. It is an infinite debt, which can only be discharged through all eternity. - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

a kiss of rain

a touch of rainbow

a smell of breeze...

I miss them all..

the death upon facing

comes accross the rays of sunlight

a gift from heaven..

o my wandering soul..

rest for a while..

What day is it 

And in what month 

This clock never seemed so alive 

I can't keep up and I can't back down 

I've been losing so much time 

Cause it's you and me and all of the people 

Nothing to do, nothing to lose 

And it's you and me and all of the people and 

I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you 

All of the things that I want to say 

Just aren't coming out right 

I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning 

I don't know where to go from here 

Cause it's you and me and all of the people 

With nothing to do, nothing to prove 

And it's you and me and all of the people and 

I don't why I can't keep my eyes off you 

Something about you now 

I can't quite figure out 

Everything she does is beautiful 

Everything she does is right 

Cause it's you and me and all of the people 

With nothing to do, nothing to lose 

And it's you and me and all of the people and 

I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of 

You and me and all of the people 

With nothing to do nothin to prove and 

It's you and me and all of the people and 

I don't why I can't keep my eyes off of you 

What day is it 

And in what month 

This clock never seemed so alive

[you & me - LIFEHOUSE]

sunshine in the middle of heavy rain?

pouring rain in the middle of a sunshine?

there should be rainbow at this time of day..

ahhh... I miss rainbow...